I have been a midwife now for sixteen years and my baby girl is 20 and beautiful

Where did you give birth or where was the birth you witnessed?

U.K., Stoke on Trent, North Staffs Maternity

Can you describe where your/the birth was?

My fourth baby was born in hospital on the third of April 1996, following a rapid induced labour. It was just me and one midwife called joy until just before I delivered, when we were joined by another midwife and doctor. I can remember vividly the fear I felt because our previous baby had passed away less than a year earlier, I was terrified that once my baby girl was born, I would no longer be able to keep her safe. But at the same time I knew this baby would help to mend our families broken heart, I was physically aching to hold her. I also felt very alone, my husband was too scared to join me, scared of the memories of our previous babies and terrified that history would repeat itself for a third time.

Who was present at your/the birth?

Midwife joy, sister Lynn Dudley, an obstetrician called Pedro and two paediatricians.

Can you describe the experience of giving birth or watching the birth?

I don’t remember much of the labour as such, it was over in Less than an hour, I do remember Lynne holding my hand and joy trying to reassure me that my baby was ok. I was attached to the ctg to monitor the heart beat and how my baby was coping with labour, and I vividly remember hearing my babies heart beat decelerate during a contraction moments before she was born. I also remember the relief, her little face, her warmth and smell, the weight of her in my arms, a feeling that I had waited for for what felt like a lifetime. It is that support, that feeling of joy, the whole picture that prompted life changing ambition for me. I have been a midwife now for sixteen years and my baby girl is 20 and beautiful. I love my job, now I try to make a difference.